My Eyes - My Future - My Montana

What we think,
or what we know,
or what we believe,
is,
in the end,
of little consequence.
The only consequence is what we do.

Here is the Divine Dichotomy...

The way to ‘get there’ is to ‘be there’.

Just be where you choose to get!

It’s that simple...

I think of you my love and how much you mean to me

For you are in my heart, my mind, my soul you see
The gentle breezes of the morning brush my face as I walk out into the day

I look at the morning sky and watch the clouds slowly move away
As I walk slowly in the morning dew

I can think of nothing but you
You have captured my heart with your true love

And for this I thank the spirits above
You make every difficult task seem easy and smooth

I can do anything in life because with you I can not lose
You make me want to run, dance and sing

With your love guiding me I can do anything
I wait anxiously for us to meet again by phone, by word or by touch

Because you see, to me you mean so much
I love you with all my heart and want to bring you happiness

You make me see that the world can be so wonderful and filled with bliss
I go from task to task throughout the day with a smile on my face

For you have made life such a joy and put me in this happy place
Even when the clouds fill the sky with gray

Because of your love I always have a good day
I walk through the rain with my face lifted to the sky

Because I am thinking of us together, you and I
The rush of the winds as they blow through the trees

Makes my heart sing with love for you with ease

I love you so much

I long for your gentle touch
You have made my life a constant dream

I am happy now like I could never have seen
I love you with all of my heart

I want this thing we have to never part
For each day as we grow closer and closer to each other

I find that I can never think of another
You have possessed me with all of my heart and I thank the heavens above

I am yours totally loving, wanting, needing your love
I look at your smile and my heart skips a beat

I long to touch your face and feel its gentle heat
I long for you both day and night

And the thought of losing you gives me such a fright
I need your love, your touching me daily with your tenderness

It gives me happiness that you love me no less
I want to sing to you and make you smile

To see your face light up for just a little while
I long to hold you in my arms so tender and sweet

I so much want us to meet
But I know that as much as we love each other now

That eventually we will meet somehow
It may not be next week, next month or next year

But I will wait forever to welcome you into my arms with a tear
For each day as our love grows stronger and stronger

I know that you will think of me and ponder
What it would be like to have me in your arms so tender and sweet

I wait patiently for the day when we meet
Remember that I love you with all of my heart

And that never my love will we be apart
For love such as ours can survive down through the years

Sharing our laughter, our sorrow, our tears
Yes I love you with all my heart and soul you see

You are my love and without you I cannot be
May the spirits that brought us together guide us through each day

I love you is what I really wanted to say.

Take me into your arms my love, hold me tight,
Make love to me throughout the night.
Show me that I am yours and that you are mine,
Forever until the end of time.
Show me you love me like no other,
Let us always care for one another.
You are that special someone that I have been waiting for,
I felt it inside my heart, and I will feel it for ever more.
I want to feel your lips touching mine,
I want to feel your body pressed close to me as our hearts intertwine.
I want all of your love,
'Cause it brings joy to me that I have only dreamed of.
I can't wait till I touch you,hold you and kiss you,
For that is what I want to do.
I want to show you just how I feel,
To show you that my feelings for you are real.
So my love, take me into your arms where our dreams we can share,
So that I can show you how much I care.
My love for you will shine forever bright,
Like the brightest star on a warm summer night.
Till the end of time I will always care,
Forever in your arms, love to share.
Remember that I love you and this will always be true,
Forever and ever love only you.
Take me into your arms my love, hold me tight,
Let's dream forever of love tonight.
For I am yours and you are mine,
Forever till the end of time.

When the sun shines upon the dew covered grasses,
Remember me, my smiles, and gentle, loving caresses.
When the rain falls from the darkened clouded sky,
Remember me and the tears I did cry.
When lightening flashes through the dark nights,
Remember me, and how I searched for what was always right.
When thunder rolls and rumbles through the air,
Remember me, and I will always be there.
When you see a rainbow arcing across the sky,
Remember me, and please do not cry.
When you see wondrous things such as waterfalls,
Remember me and how I always gave my all.
When you hear a child laugh in joy and glee,
Always, always remember me.
When you see someone that struggles to be recognized,
Remember me and how hard I always tried.
When you see two lovers walking hand in hand,
Remember me, as you travel across this land.
When you see a moon shining in the sky so bright,
Remember me, and my love for all that is right.
When you see the wonderful and fascinating things this world has to hold,
Remember me, as you grow old.
For all I have asked is remembrance and love,
For this is all I have ever dreamed of.
When you realize,
what could have been,
What could have happened back then...
Just recall my words for that is how I wished it to be...
Always, Always......remember me......

I Want To Know

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living.
I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.

It doesn't interest me how old you are.
I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dream, for the adventure of being alive.

It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring your moon.
I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shriveled and closed from fear of further pain!
I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it, or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being human.

It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithless and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty even when it's not pretty, every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of the lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "Yes!"

It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up, after the night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone, and do what needs to be done to feed the children.

It doesn't interest me who you know or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not shrink back.

It doesn't interest me where or what or with whom you have studied.
I want to know what sustains you, from the inside, when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.

Even the seasons form a great circle in their changing, and always come back again to where they were. The life of a man is a circle from childhood to childhood, and so it is in everything where power moves.
Black Elk Oglala Sioux Holy Man

I knew things were changing. The circle slowly spinning. Signs everywhere. My ability to see them clearer now more than ever. I have been living my latest motto. I have stepped out of myself and things are good and things are happening. I've been so trapped inside, for way too many years, and it feels so free to "step out". I have rekindled a beautiful friendship, for lack of any other way to explain the relationship, and I'm meeting new people that love the same things I do. I never thought in a million years I would put myself out there as I am doing and I'm starting to enjoy it. Imagine me! part of a social circuit....

Where love reigns the impossible may be attained.

Love yourself; get outside yourself and take action. Focus on the solution; be at peace.

(Sioux)

I'm so excited and I have no one to be excited with me! I went to register for my classes today, my plan is in action and I couldn't be happier! Last night was awful. Again I had to hear about how selfish it is for me to go to school. Again hearing him tell me he doesn't get anything out of it. It's really about him losing a bit of control...me out of the house, not at a job where he can "see" everything I do; meeting new people. I just have to laugh at his absurdity! It does suck that I can't talk about it or share my excitement. I am now going to have to deal with his ill attitude, I guess, for the next year. But it's worth it and I'm so excited.
Hello World, I'm back in school!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!