Lost and Found

Lost in the past.
For so many years.
Yearning for that same feeling,
Memories that were still so real.
It has taken some years
to reconcile with the past;
To finish the unfinished,
To finally say goodbye.
I sit here this morning
listening to the birds
and treefrogs singing,
the sun warming my face
as I look to the sky.
Like the clouds moving
Across the vast heavenly plains,
I realize I can
let my clouds go
Send them on their way,
let the past go
and live for today.
I am here now
A part of this day,
not yesterday,
not last year.
I will live today
and now every day
because I have buried the past
and I have found today.

08-30-11

Grief - It's the same....

I once had a first love. From the time I was 11 until the day he died 13 years later after having a beautiful marriage and a very beautiful daughter... if only he had gotten to see grow up...she was only 8 months old when he passed. It has been many years later and recently I was very much expecting another baby; at 42 years old now! I have just lost my baby. My baby that I never got to hold; only saw through a screen. The hurt is the same when you love someone with all your heart; just as I loved that baby growing inside me and the man I loved so much. Grief is the same...only memories are different...


C


08-02-11